My rage is beginning to get FAR out of control. I've tried everything to stop it, but it's much like a multi-headed hydra, in the sense that for ever time I seem to lop off a head from it, 2 more appear. I can't beat it; no matter how hard I try.
I guess an even better way to make it into a image is by comparing it to a Driver's Ed type car set in a neutral, and pushed down a hill, that just keeps rolling until it gets faster and faster, and it endangers things that I like, such as friendship. I need help, I really do. My brakes are broken, and it's just going to keep going and going until I hit another flat area, but eventually, it just slowly rolls until it hits another hill where it keeps going in going.
If I'm in a party with you, I need somebody to speak up when I get too out of control. The occasional, "That guy is a faggot", or "God Damnit", and such are okay, because I usually am still feeling good, but that's how I blow off steam so I don't get mad. But when I get to the point where I focus on score and self destruction, just tell me, "Stop Raging" "You're Raging" "Calm Down" etc. I noticed that when somebody points it out, I realize what I'm doing, and I calm down for a bit unless something sets me off again, but it really helps. I find it hard to disobey what somebody else says, and it helps me snap out of it.
If you want to help, thank you, thank you, thank you, oo thank you. If not, that's alright, I don't blame you for wanting to get involved, because it often gets really ugly when I finally snap and get really mad for the day, as far as when I self destruct for a while.
I guess an even better way to make it into a image is by comparing it to a Driver's Ed type car set in a neutral, and pushed down a hill, that just keeps rolling until it gets faster and faster, and it endangers things that I like, such as friendship. I need help, I really do. My brakes are broken, and it's just going to keep going and going until I hit another flat area, but eventually, it just slowly rolls until it hits another hill where it keeps going in going.
If I'm in a party with you, I need somebody to speak up when I get too out of control. The occasional, "That guy is a faggot", or "God Damnit", and such are okay, because I usually am still feeling good, but that's how I blow off steam so I don't get mad. But when I get to the point where I focus on score and self destruction, just tell me, "Stop Raging" "You're Raging" "Calm Down" etc. I noticed that when somebody points it out, I realize what I'm doing, and I calm down for a bit unless something sets me off again, but it really helps. I find it hard to disobey what somebody else says, and it helps me snap out of it.
If you want to help, thank you, thank you, thank you, oo thank you. If not, that's alright, I don't blame you for wanting to get involved, because it often gets really ugly when I finally snap and get really mad for the day, as far as when I self destruct for a while.