It's morning!

Notice I said nothing about it being a good morning. The GF didn't sleep well last night so guess who else didn't sleep well.... This guy! Also we had sleet last night and its snowing as I type this.

Shaping up to be that kind of day. Hows everyone else?

I went to the drs and they'll probably accept me for my depression and stuff they said,gotta call back on the 30th after 2pm.....


didn't sleep well at all...got up at 6 something and went to bed at like 2 something...

42 degrees here but it's like a wet cold and feels so much worse.

eh.....better day than usual for me.

Also didn't sleep well. wtf SeC?

insonmia is a bitch and then when i finally do get to sleep I cant sleep long =/

im just now getting a chance to sleep.

I slept like a baby.

Grey wrote:*secretly places thumbtacks inside of Mills' mattress*

Not very secret if you post about it on a forum. Pshhh noob!

Woke up once last night from stomach pains that I was having yesterday afternoon. Ended up staying home from school today because of it.

Lovin, awesome Avatar. I may change mine to Mallrats too.

Jay wrote:I slept like a baby.

Woke up, did the usual get ready stuff, went to school, did my final presentation which was great. Everyone seemed a little nerveous when they presented but i didn't and explained everything well (Was on the early years of the Ford Mustang.) Got a B for the course which i am happy with.

Came home got a email from amazon telling me about their game deals, noticed a game i bought last week was on there for $19 less and after an email they called me up and i explained that since it's a promotion and not just a price drop if i could somehow get the differance... I now have $19 in amazon credit

Terrinator wrote:

Grey wrote:*secretly places thumbtacks inside of Mills' mattress*

Not very secret if you post about it on a forum. Pshhh noob!

Psh... I sleep in a coffin. The matress is just for show.

the girl I've been seeing for a bit ripped my heart and guts out through my ass yesterday...needless to say I did not sleep well last night.

usually shit like this doesn't phase me but she was different...pretty much everything I've ever wanted and could hope for in another human being she was it so I'm not doing so hot over here to tell the truth.

Whats the deal... Somethings in the air. My night was fine but I was 20 minutes late today, Had a busy morning.... made a mistake that..... sould have cost me my job....... THings are fine now tho.


Hydra. I understand, been there myself man and its never a fun place to be. All I can say is try and stay busy and try to keep your mind from over thinking it. Easier said than done I know.

DRGN LRD 1213 wrote:Whats the deal... Somethings in the air. My night was fine but I was 20 minutes late today, Had a busy morning.... made a mistake that..... sould have cost me my job....... THings are fine now tho.


Hydra. I understand, been there myself man and its never a fun place to be. All I can say is try and stay busy and try to keep your mind from over thinking it. Easier said than done I know.

yeah I had to get out of my place and just go somewhere this morning. I walked around for a bit and took the bus to the music store to check on an amp I ordered months ago...they don't know where it is and can't find out till the holidays are over

today is just not a very good day at all.

It's also grey and blech out.

Gaming heals all wounds.


I say that jokingly, but keeping busy helps. And Gaming does just that.

After the most insane rollercoaster day I've ever had, last night was rather fine. Spent a few hours at Siren's after school, got home and into an immediate shouting match with parents about work habits and grades, stayed up for two and a half hours with homework, wrapped some gifts for the holidays, then fell into bed exhausted and head-achey. Needless to say, insomnia and night mares set in immediately and I had another fucked up night.

Whats the deal SeC, are we cursed?
*le gasp*

It's .net getting revenge!

Didn't sleep at all last night. Literally laid in bed staring at the ceiling for 5 hours. Needless to say, work was awesome. I feel like shit right now, but I can't take a nap or else I won't be able to sleep again tonight. Fuck.

Nyquil for everyone tonight!


MIlls is right tho, blowing shit up in bf# could be a stress relief. DOnt stress about k/d and go fuck around blowing the shit out of buikldings or other funny shit!


Troll your team mates with smoke, or C4 and laugh.

no nyquil for me thanks, just more physics and present-wrapping.

Hydra, however good she was there will be someone better someday, the most important part is to not give up looking. Go play games, immerse yourself in something intense and difficult (*cough*Skyrim*cough*) and forget all the shit that happened. After that, get a drink, look back on it and force yourself to say "Fuck it."

Sorry to hear that Hydra. Its rough shit to go through >_>

Jay wrote:Gaming heals all wounds.


I say that jokingly, but keeping busy helps. And Gaming does just that.

yeah I know man I had thought about taking out my frustrations in BF3 last night but I just went to bed. I don't feel like doing much of anything really.

This is by far the worst breakup I've ever gone through just because of the sheer fucked upness of how it happened. I was on cloud nine with this girl and we'd always write giant emails to each other since we are both pretty busy and couldn't spend as much time as we would have liked together. And then yesterday afternoon I was expecting an email since I sent her one the day before. And I got an email all right...an email telling me that while I did absolutely nothing wrong and that I was the most amazing person and that we shared a connection like she had never experienced before we could no longer be together because of the pain and scars that I have from my younger days. She's a yoga instructor/new age type so she's quite deep and spiritual. She said these scars I carry would hinder both of our personal growths and so we needed to part ways. There's a bunch more but that's pretty much the short version. She said it's not what she wanted to do but what the universe had in store for us. I just don't understand how people can just throw away such a deep connection on a whim. Me and her we connected on every level you can think of. Never have I been so content and satisfied in a relationship...and then poof wake up one morning and it's all gone and everything changed with no warning and it's like none of that matters anymore. Like it was just a dream. it's very disheartening.

I never saw this coming. I was thinking about how great it was gonna be when we would see each other next and I was so happy about where I was in life and now it seems like everything just came crashing down out from under me. I can usually pick up the pieces pretty quick and move on...but right now I'm just feeling lost.

/rant

well I feel a little better...thanks for listening to my bullshit guys.

Talk about a swift kick in the crotch, that is really harsh man. You have my sympathies...... I know its not much, but its all I got.

I've been there man.....

love of my life turned out to be a whore and dumped me out of the blue on new years 09.... took me forever to get over it.I still miss her sometimes but it gets better with time,yeah finding something to do really helps.I wish I had BF3.

If it was still on sale for 20 something or 30 bucks I could have bought it today,but it's back up to 50 bucks used....fml lol

I cried for a couple days straight and really ever since then I've cared alot less about life,but I'm getting better....

I have a hard time letting go of the past cuz of everything that's happened to me.some days are worse than others..

it's all gray and bleak here too....and I HATE this wet cold weather :/

out of all people to take me to the therapist today it was my dad.......he was too disgusted with me and let me off at the highway...he was too proud to pull into the place

I guess he's too much of a "real man" to ever seek help....

Terrinator wrote:Talk about a swift kick in the crotch, that is really harsh man. You have my sympathies...... I know its not much, but its all I got.

tell me about it man...like if we both love each other and nothing is really wrong and we get along perfectly and share alot of the same views on life then why the fuck can't we just be happy together?

And hey thanks for listening it's much appreciated...I consider you guys my friends around here and getting this shit off my chest feels good. It's been bottled up since yesterday and it was making my heart feel like it was being crushed. Feels pretty good to talk about it.

I slept really well, I worked last night till 11pm, back in on the midnight shift tonight.

Hyrda: sucks man, it really sucks. It isn't much consolation, but at least she was honest and didn't carry it on without her heart in it.

yeah man it makes me feel better to talk about stuff too

I'm really sorry for you Hydra, thats just not right. The universe isn't fair, and this time you're on the short end of the stick. We're all more than happy to listen, and help in any way we can. I hope you feel better soon friend, and I hope this lady comes to her senses.



/friendship

JrTapia1991 wrote:I've been there man.....

love of my life turned out to be a whore and dumped me out of the blue on new years 09.... took me forever to get over it.I still miss her sometimes but it gets better with time,yeah finding something to do really helps.I wish I had BF3.

If it was still on sale for 20 something or 30 bucks I could have bought it today,but it's back up to 50 bucks used....fml lol

I cried for a couple days straight and really ever since then I've cared alot less about life,but I'm getting better....

I have a hard time letting go of the past cuz of everything that's happened to me.some days are worse than others..

it's all gray and bleak here too....and I HATE this wet cold weather :/

out of all people to take me to the therapist today it was my dad.......he was too disgusted with me and let me off at the highway...he was too proud to pull into the place

I guess he's too much of a "real man" to ever seek help....

wow man that's fucking brutal what your dad did...really sorry to hear that man. I've had a rough life too and can sympathize. I'm pretty prone to depression and stuff. My tween and teen years were just full of physical and mental abuse from my peers and even my parents...my dad mostly.

Me and him barely speak even though we live under the same roof. Our relationship is pretty much non existent.

You gotta find what makes you happy in life Jr...that thing that let's you escape all the bullshit. For me that's playing/writing music.

I also find writing helps me snap out of a depression...writing down everything that I'm feeling and thinking about and really looking at it...trying to make sense of it.

Pariah wrote:I'm really sorry for you Hydra, thats just not right. The universe isn't fair, and this time you're on the short end of the stick. We're all more than happy to listen, and help in any way we can. I hope you feel better soon friend, and I hope this lady comes to her senses.



/friendship

it's all good guys and thanks alot you're all stand up dudes and just listening and caring is more than enough.

Sorry to hear about that Hydra. At least she broke up with you in a somewhat gentle way, though it's really unfortunate that she did. Best of wishes to you, and hope things get better for you soon.

Kitsune wrote:Sorry to hear about that Hydra. At least she broke up with you in a somewhat gentle way, though it's really unfortunate that she did. Best of wishes to you, and hope things get better for you soon.

thanks man though to me this was quite brutal...I would have preferred that their be problems or a fight or that she at least have done it to my face. Maybe that way I would of had some closure and maybe dealt with it better. This way I'm really mind fucked about it but I've been felling relatively ok the past couple hours...I thought I was gonna puke earlier.

I feel your pain hydra one minute your the happiest person in the world then you just get shit on by everyone and their mother... very displeasing i know....

I personally slept well. Also sorry to hear about your girl troubles Hydra.

yeah didn't sleep that great again...I passed out at like 7pm and had planned to get up around 1am and take out some frustrations on BF3 but I just kept on sleeping and I got up at 5am.

this monring was pretty shitty...woke up and it was dark and I was half expecting someone to be beside me when I woke up but then I realized I'm alone. Mornings are probably gonna suck for awhile until I can get over this shit.

thats really shitty hydra...

well i just woke up pretty early, not going to school today.

yeah I have nothing to do today either...it's gonna be a pretty long day. Then I work at 10pm. Hopefully that will keep my mind off things.