My depression that I thought I finally managed to get over with a year ago, all rushed back today.

My dog on Saturday bit part of my step-brother's nose off. So we have to get rid of him. My mom won't let me try and convince my friends mom(whom I live with)to let me keep him here, because apparently he snapped and barked at my neighbors kids(who are both under the age of 5.
Which is not like him since he used to love them.
But becaues my friends mom has her grandkids over all the time she won't let me talk to her.

So right now were left with no other options but to get rid of him. Im already looking into no kill shelters, but even thats a small possibility cause they're all at max capacity. All I know is im giving him up to the pound. I am not sending him ANYWHERE they will kill him. I cant do that.

But im a wreck right now. Im in tears, I can't sleep, and to top it all off I think I just broke my forearm from punching things.

This dog has been my best friend for over 2 years, and was one of the reasons I got over my horrible depression in the first place. I can't imagine losing him. I really can't. But I know thats inevitable. And just knowing that makes me feel like shit.

Its honestly because of that dog that kept me from commiting suicide back when my depression was really bad. And I....I don't know what I will do without him right now....ifucking cnt

Dog's don't typically do this kind of crap unless something happened to them. What breed is the dog?

*bro hug* Really sorry to hear that Soap...I've wrestled with depression a few times in the past so I know how bad it sucks. Hopefully you can get through it relatively quickly. Just try and remember things will get better eventually even if it seems pretty hopeless right now.

Yeah the kid had to have instigated him...

That's messed up though man, sucks to hear that. You'll get by though.

drive him out to some really isolated place and let him go? I dont know how dogs do in the wild :\

Duck wrote:drive him out to some really isolated place and let him go? I dont know how dogs do in the wild :\

Poorly, usually.

Can't you just cage him up when the kid is around? My dog bit me in the face when i was a kid and i have a scar under my eye from it and i still kept him. it didn't help that i'd put my face in his face all the time..

I was really young...

Unless I'm in the room, dogs usually don't snap at random. There's some bs going on there man.

That being said, I'm really sorry Soap. I know how it feels to lose an animal friend you're so close to, but I know you'll survive it. It's going to hurt for a long while, but you've got friends, you've got family, and tbh you've got us on the SeC. We're all here for you man.

Sorry to hear that man

Ive been dealing with alot of stuff myself too

Im on the fence about sharing with you guys, I'm 95% sure I have a SERIOUS illness....

Sym wrote:Sorry to hear that man

Ive been dealing with alot of stuff myself too

Im on the fence about sharing with you guys, I'm 95% sure I have a SERIOUS illness....

If it's a serious illness, I hereby swear to absolutely not ridicule you in that topic, or in any relation to said illness.

It depends....do you consider cancer a serious illness?

Sym wrote:It depends....do you consider cancer a serious illness?

Absolutely. And as much as it might sometimes seem like I hate you, I am genuinely sorry to hear that that's something you're impacted by.

Yea I thought about making a thread about it but just didnt want to worry everyone.

I really only have my wife for support, and shes a mess right now......

But I decided against the thread idea, but I guess my little secret is out now.

I'm very sorry to hear that Sym. Even if we're at total opposite ends on most things, I still like you somewhat, and this is just saddening.

Shit happens yo

Im probably going to lose righty....

Damn. That really sucks dude.

its not confirmed yet. Not till Friday. This is going to be the longest weak of my life.

Its not a forgone conclusion yet, but the urologist said its 95% chance at being cancerous.

Good thing is that TC is very curable, so the chances of me living a normal life is good.

Sym wrote:Shit happens yo

Im probably going to lose righty....

Oh god what the fuck.

Actually understanding how cancer functions, TC is one of the less awful ones to get. At least it isn't lung cancer, or pancreatic.

MEGA MILK wrote:

Sym wrote:Shit happens yo

Im probably going to lose righty....

Oh god what the fuck.

Testicular cancer yo

Shit sucks horribly

Ive been feeling pretty shitty for about a week now, and still havent even been confirmed.

Pariah wrote:Actually understanding how cancer functions, TC is one of the less awful ones to get. At least it isn't lung cancer, or pancreatic.

The cure rates are incredibly high

I just hope if thats what it is....we caught it early.

The urologist didn't help me one bit today by saying its likely cancerous, but you have to wait till Friday to find out.

TC is one of my biggest worries...next to hear failure (family history is full of heart problems).......so yeah.

menacinglemon wrote:TC is one of my biggest worries...next to hear failure (family history is full of heart problems).......so yeah.

I hear ya.....

Sym wrote:
The urologist didn't help me one bit today by saying its likely cancerous, but you have to wait till Friday to find out.

think about it this way. You, as an adult American male, have between 35 and 60 cancerous cell clusters on your body right now. One more is completely beatable.

Thanks. yea I know Ill kick its ass.

Physically Im not worried. I will dominate cancer, and make it my bitch.

But the mental aspect of it is already starting to wear on me.

I'll lay off a bit, in light of this news I feel I should apologize.

No need

Im pretty tough

I can handle things thrown my way, always have, always will.

Ill find out for sure on Friday. Ill keep you guys posted on the news.

that really sucks soap, animals have been closer to me than my horrible dysfunctional family ever has. I know how extreme depression is too

that sucks too sym,at least it's really curable.

Hey at least I have you crazy assholes to keep me entertained

sym you had me so worried D:
and then it's only tc which is i guess slightly less worrisome
but still man that blows bro feels man bro feels

but hey maybe you wont need to use protection in the future!

Duck wrote:sym you had me so worried D:
and then it's only tc which is i guess slightly less worrisome
but still man that blows bro feels man bro feels

but hey maybe you wont need to use protection in the future!

Yea I take comfort in knowing its highly curable. It still not confirmed yet, but its highly likely. Probably have my right nut cut out next week

I am worried about sex afterwards though, it better not fuck up anything else down there.....grrrr

Thanks for the words. I didnt want to tell anybody on here unless it was confirmed, but after todays news Im feeling rather down.

jesus christ man i wouldnt even care if i died compared to it meaning loss of boner functionality.

According to the Doc, you can have sex just fine with one nut

Its when you lose both that things become tricky

Really? I assumed that would just be a more crude version of a vasectomy.

WIth one nut everything remains normal down below

Your one nut will just produce more semen and testosterone in that case.

You can still orgasm like normally I guess with one.

When you lose both you have to be on hormone therapy to replace the lost testosterone.

Even without any nuts you can still get it on I guess, just need to take a few extra steps.

some kind of viagra haha

Damn sym you practically gave me a heart attack back there . Incredibly shitty news but at least as far as cancer goes you got one of the less worst ones.

I'm incredibly paranoid/fearful of TC myself. Sometimes I think I'll see something weird down there but so far I think I'm ok. No lumps or anything.

I really hope the docs are wrong and that you don't have TC and that you'll be fine.

Yea didnt want to alarm anyone

Im sure Ill be fine , cancer or no cancer

I have a 5% chance of it being non cancerous according to Doc so Im holding onto that until Friday.

BUT today has been a rough day

The wife has been crying, my mom has been crying.......

Im knee deep in a case off PBR right now trying to numb the scared feelings

Moral of the story

CHECK YOUR BALLS

damn thats rough sym, youre braver than most of us as this topic shows

http://www.speakeasyclinic.com/t14531-would-youday-18

Well its not exactly going to be optional lol

Sym wrote:Moral of the story

CHECK YOUR BALLS

Yeah I actually do this cause I'm kinda paranoid as of late...did you find like a hard lump? is it super noticeable?

sometimes something looks off on the right side down there but it's not hard or anything. Squishy like it's supposed to be (I'm assuming).

My lump was tiny

Like a pin head size

The wife found it

If you have any concerns go to the DR

The embarassment of having an old man handle your junk quickly goes away once you realize you have a serious medical condition

TC is the leading cause of cancer for men 20-35, especially in white men.

TC is racist

menacinglemon wrote:TC is racist

no doubt

Whenever I went for check ups and shit back in Germany, the all the rooms had the poster that says,

"If you are a white male between the age of 15 to 30, get regular check ups...etc"

But ya everytime I went ... all I saw was that. Oh, and the super creepy human digestive system and eyeball diagrams....super enhanced.